Lucid.

rain and shine.

I sit outside while the storm comes in

The cool air likes to breathe on my skin

The rain drops make my glasses blurry

The sky gets angry in the calm, flashes of light warning you to go inside into safety

The growling of the man above likes to prepare you for the worst

“Get inside, or else.”

I never liked to listen to warnings

Juvenile traits I have to outgrow

When the rain starts to pour my clothes start to stick

I start to shiver knowing my body needs the warmth of another

But the cold and gloom, makes me appreciate the bloom

I’d like die with the feeling of the sky making me new

My hair is to my shoulders for the first time in two years

Something you can’t speak about for the fear of it being taken and buried

I went to the forest and walked the trails until I couldn’t breathe

Heart pumping in my ears

Sweat tickling my lip

I put sun block on all the ink I collected and borrowed

To prevent the fade into green

My cheeks hurt from the smiling and giggles that only birthed from innocent laughter

I waited till I couldn’t breathe to pull out my inhaler

The rush and expansion of lungs made me speak about nonsense to the trees

I have found ways to become this free

I don’t have any money

It’s kinda funny

But this is the happiest I’ve ever been

Kristy Sveinson

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